went on an overnight trip out of town and managed to eat as little as possible but as soon as I came home I binged as much as possible and couldn’t even purge and punished myself with laxatives
for that brief 24 hours I felt a bit better even though I was obsessing over how much weight I’ve gained the whole time, at the concert, being a tourist in a different city, trying to enjoy myself on a mini vacation but at least I wasn’t bingeing and purging and sitting at home alone, letting my disorder isolate me further
tomorrow I’m most likely going to go to an ABA (anorexics and bulimics anonymous) meeting for the first time just to try it out, apparently the group is only about 5 people and I want to know if anyone has a doctor they know that I could see instead of my psychiatrist who would take me seriously
he said I’m bulimic, or wanted to put me on prozac to treat bulimia, but he didn’t ask me a single question so I don’t really trust his…. anything